Saturday, 10 October 2015

Sound of silence

We always want something we can't have. We keep on pursuing it, and when we have it we don't want it anymore. Strange isn't it?

My dad wants to gain weight, and I want to loose weight. I know a very young girl from Surinam that want to abort her child and I know a not so very young girl from Morocco that tries so hard to have a child.




When I was in University some seven years back now, for the first time I had this constant high tone in my ear, as if you hear the sound of a high beep all the time. At first it kept me awake at night. I got to a doctor and he said it was Tinnitus, a sound it the head that you only can hear.




I had a hard time coming to terms that some one who loved the sound of silence above all else would never hear the sound of silence again. After after my mourning process I have come to accept it. Sometimes it's very, very hard, sometimes it's on the background. But it's always there.

We always want something we cannot have.


9 comments:

  1. Oh, Han, what a touching post.
    Yes, you are right.
    We always want something we cannot have.
    " you can't always get what you want,
    But if you try,
    Sometimes you might find,
    You get what you need "

    Big hug to you, Han

    Mona Lisa

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    1. Wise words, Mona Lisa and yes you are right if you do not try to get what you want you have lost already. In Tinnitus it's the acceptance that is the hardest part. The noise can be so loud it blurs over any other sounds, including beautiful music and in a room full of people it is impossible to hear a single voice that is talking to you.

      But sometimes, it's not so bad and it's just there in the background...

      Big hug back,
      Han

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  2. Oh wow Han...I also suffer from Tinnitus...sometimes it is so bad I just want to scream and other times, I don't really notice it as much but either way, it never goes away. :(

    I have absolutely loved the "Sound of Silence" since it was first released by Simon and Garfunkel...never get tired of hearing it and really wish I could hear the sound of silence I heard back when the song was originally released. Thank you for sharing the different versions...S&G are still my favorite. ;)

    Hugs and blessings...Cat

    Hugs and blessings...Cat

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    1. Suffer is the right word, I think Cat. But we are not alone, so many people have Tinnitus, and well, we "just" have to accept that Life is the way it is. And you do a wonderful job at that, Cat.

      I have listened a few times at the video's above... LOL. I love the song as well. I love all songs of Simon and Garfunkel. After they split up I bought a few albums of Art Garfunkel, none of Paul Simon....

      Smile,
      Han

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  3. I'm so sorry, tinnitus has to be a terrible thing to deal with. From someone who also enjoys the sounds of silence, I sympathize with you, Cat and anyone else that suffers from this disease.

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    1. And now, the S&G's Sound of Silence will be playing in my head all day.

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    2. It is as it is, Leigh. LOL about the song in your head all day. I had it in my head all day yesterday until my beloved said, "Do you know to sing other songs as well?". My version of "Bridge over troubled water" is of course "Holland got Talent"-worthy... Pity nobody in this house thinks so.

      Ahum,
      Han

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  4. Simon and Garfunkel were and are among my favorites....I was lucky enough to get to see them once. Sorry about the tinnitus....I am a silent lover also...
    hugs abby

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    1. Hello darkness, my old friend,
      I've come to talk with you again.

      You saw them live Abby? That must have been wonderful. A friend once told me to concentrate on the noise in mediation. And strangely that helps in mediation...

      So for every little problem there is a little solution,
      Han

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